It's impossible: I nearly forgot about it..
even if I know I can never forget it, I do not make a single breath without thinking about it,
but i was busy doing other things recently,
or I hid it somewhere in my mind because I love it too much?
The voice is still a bit weak,
or is it my fear telling me so?
I fought for it so many years, despite doctor's advice, despite life's advice:
being an artist & a freelancer is so freakingly unbelieveably tough!
especially when you know you are delicate & need to be careful.
even though, thank god, all is ok now, & doctors were simply wrong.
I nearly forgot but I know
I can't wait, I can't stop waiting, I can't stop worrying,
I can't stop preparing, I can't stop getting ready
I miss SINGING so damn bloody horribly terrifyingly much
and yet, I need to sometimes, in the mess of life, remind myself it is SINGING that counts the most...
www.myspace.com/mayasings
((some gigs this week, yeay yeay yeay ))
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